Notes To Myself

I am Tagore. I have had a good life. Been very fortunate to have been exposed to most of the shades of life, bright and dull. I have tasted the sweetness of miracles in my life, and seen myself naked - exposed to the pain and loneliness of times. I truly believe that I have met the best people in the world, and passed by the evil ones too. Also consider myself fortunate that I met Satan in the closest form to being him/herself. I am grateful for it all, having been exposed to this vast spectrum of emotional colours. With all of these experiences being like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle in my soul, I look at myself now in the mirror and all I can see is - life. My life. What a splash, what a spectrum, what an amazing banquet of colours and shades. Thank you Lord.

I have written books of verses, sent them to heroes like Amithabh Bachchan and Kitaro, Steven Spielberg and Zakhir Hussain and many more. I quit my full time job, wrote a film and with no prior contacts or experience got my film sold within a few months of stepping foot into the crazy world of Indian cinema in Mumbai. Today, I have a friend for an agent, worked with another friend on a soon to be released mainstream bollywood film and made more friends within the industry. I shook hands with the Amithab and he remembered my book of poems that I sent him, and even reminded me that he thanked me for it thru a letter. I got a hug from Miss Universe Sushmita Sen, who felt comfortable to speak to me in Bengali, and then she gave me her email id and her mobile phone number. I sat and chatted with Zakhir Hussain and we connected on the spiritual side of being artistic. The lovely Mother Thereza wrote me a note, thanking me personally for a verse I had written on her.

I have made a short film, though not of the greatest technical specs, but I wrote it, directed it and put it out on the net. I have cried with the oceans a few days after the Tsunami and shared in her sorrow for what she had done. I have looked to the skies as the sun pushed in her rays amidst the rain and smiled at the sun and said 'you just have to have the last say, don’t you?'. Surprisingly soon after that I heard her roar 'Life Tagore Life!! There will always be sunshine after ever cloud. This is how I have been made by Almighty'. I smiled, the sun smiled and I reckon God looked at me from above and said 'Yeah - Now you got it'.

I am now getting married, and again I have realized that a beautiful soul who loves me like crazy, worries about me literally as much as my Ma does, nags me literally as much as my Ma does and puts up with my tantrums and moods, literally just as much as my Ma does. She smiles - ALL THE TIME, and when I first met her years ago I was convinced that she was the Sun's antenna here on earth, amplifying the sun shine here on earth. Guess what? I am marrying her. Rather she choose me to be her life partner. I cannot wait to have her home. My immediate family means the world to me, and so do a few very close friends. They love her; she takes me closer to them. What else could I ask for? Again in gratitude I bow my head in appreciation to Almighty. Thank you.

Having had a cool single life, I know the life after I get married will be equally if not better in terms of life and opportunities. I cannot wait to be a husband, a father, a son-in-law. I cannot wait to be exposed to other opportunities that God has in store for me, knowing that I am married then, would be a better time to present them to me. I cannot wait, to pray to Almighty as a couple. I cannot wait - simply coz this is nothing more than a blessing to me from the Almighty.

Look around YOU, Look Carefully - see what he has offered you. Bow in gratitude and embrace it all in totality.

Note: Pray for me, for my life to come and in gratitude for my life gone by, as I shall do the same or you. Sorry for the long delay in updating this blog. Smiles & Prayers - Tagore Almeida -